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Unfiltered & authentic - a real-life glimpse of bipolar disorder. Join mental health advocate, Shaley Hoogendoorn as she passionately share her bipolar journey and holds space for the stories others. It is her greatest hope that these raw and real stories will give insight, shatter stigma, and offer hope. This is bipolar...
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Monday May 13, 2024
Monday May 13, 2024
In this insightful episode of 'conversations with', our host Shaley Hoogendoorn engages in a deep and meaningful conversation with Dr. Andrea Vassilev, a bipolar specialist and survivor. They delve deep into personal experiences with Bipolar II and Unspecified BipolarDisorder, shedding light on mental health, self-stigma, and the importance of understanding this often misunderstood condition.
Dr. Vassilev not only provides an overview of her own journey with bipolar disorder from her early diagnosis at the age of 14 but also highlights her work on the first self-stigma program for bipolar disorder, 'Overcoming Self-Stigma in Bipolar Disorder.' Her moving tales and commitment to change resonate deeply, illuminating the path for others battling bipolar disorder.
Apart from the meaningful personal narrative, this episode enlists insightful coping strategies from a clinical perspective. The conversation sheds light on life with bipolar disorder, from personal reflections and family interactions to coping mechanisms and the spectrum of bipolar experiences. The discussion ends with invaluable advice for those living with the disorder, emphasizing the importance of community support and self-care.
Exploring the intersection of bipolar disorders and relationships, communication, and professional aid, this episode provides eye-opening perspectives and empathetic advice. Whether you are personally grappling with bipolar disorder, a supportive partner or simply seeking to understand better, this conversation offers valuable insights and understanding.
Through the lens of those who live it, 'Conversations about Unmasking Bipolar' paints an honest picture of life with Bipolar Disorder. Join us on this journey of understanding, empathy, and acceptance towards changing the narrative around mental illness.
this is bipolar...
My dear listeners,
As always, we talk about hard and messy mental illness topics. This episode could be activating so please take care of yourself. The episode is always here if you need to have breaks to take care of yourself.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
Dr. Andrea Vassilev holds a doctorate in psychology and is a registered psychological associate in California. She has lived with bipolar disorder for over 25 years and is the creator of the original program, Overcoming Self-Stigma in Bipolar Disorder. As a clinician and academic with lived experience, Andrea brings a special perspective to both her professional and advocacy work. Andrea hopes that by telling her own story of life with bipolar disorder through the lenses of clinical causes, treatments, and outcomes that she can provide education, hope, and comfort to others. You can connect with her on Instagram @best.life.bipolar or at www.andreavassilev.com (http://www.andreavassilev.com/)
Resources mentioned:
www.ossibd.com (http://www.ossibd.com/) (Overcoming Self-Stigma in Bipolar Disorder)
Dr Jim Phelps- Why Am I Still Depressed; Recognizing and Managing the Ups and Downs of Bipolar 2 and Soft Bipolar Disorder
Dr. Holly A. Swartz’s book-The Social Rhythm Therapy Workbook for Bipolar Disorder

Wednesday Apr 24, 2024
Wednesday Apr 24, 2024
In this episode of 'conversations with' mental illness activist, Shaley Hoogendoorn sits down with fellow advocate & Director of Education for NAMI (SE Minnesota), Lee Formella.
This conversation not only digs deep into the before and after his diagnosis and shares it all with us. Lee is open about addiction and how it affected his jobs as well as how and why he became online advocate.
Shaley and Lee also talk about how much his life has changed since he committed to a managing his bipolar disorder. It is so helpful to hear the practices that help him live well with his bipolar symptoms.
This conversation is a raw and real glimpse into what it looks and feels like to live with bipolar. It is our hope that this episode will educate, comfort and inspire you all. You can read even more about Lee in his bio.
This is bipolar…
My dear listeners,
As always, we talk about hard and messy mental illness topics. This episode could be activating so please take care of yourself. The episode is always here if you need to have breaks to take care of yourself.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
About Lee:
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, cptsd, and generalized anxiety disorder in September of 2019 after surviving 15 years of suicidal thoughts and absolute chaos. Though a lot of hard work, self-awareness, and surrounding myself with a phenomenal support network, I have found some stability, contentment and success while living with bipolar disorder.
A little over a year ago, I decided to share my story after not finding many relatable folks initially who were living comfortably with bipolar disorder, but especially men. While I have since found so many incredible creators, writers and friends living with bipolar disorder, I am so happy to have started an account sharing my own story. It has led to lasting and meaningful relationships with people all around the world.
Over the last year, I have been lucky enough to share my story for law enforcement, at universities and for local support groups and mental health education programs. It has provided me with direction and a path that combined a passion with a path forward. Recently, I began a job (my first not in sales or restaurants!) as the Director of Education for NAMI Southeast Minnesota, which will allow me to continue this amazing journey of spreading knowledge to eliminate the stigma that follows a mental illness diagnosis.
You can find more of my story at benefitsofbipolar.com, on Instagram @benefits_of_bipolar, on YouTube @benefitsofbipolar and articles for the International Bipolar Foundation at ibpf.org! I truly love nothing more than meeting people who are passionate about mental illness and those who live with bipolar; please reach out!

Wednesday Apr 24, 2024
CONVERSATIONS about Schizoaffective Bipolar Type- Kit, content creator @schizokitzo
Wednesday Apr 24, 2024
Wednesday Apr 24, 2024
In this episode mental illness advocate, Shaley Hoogendoorn has a conversation with content creator, Kit of @schizokitzo. Kit dives deep into what was like before and after her diagnosis of schizoaffective bipolar type. She shares the difference between bipolar type 1 symptoms and schitzoaffective disorder bipolar type symptoms.
Kit also describes the psychotic break she experienced that lead up to her hospital stay and diagnosis of schizoaffective bipolar type. This authentic and powerful conversation is packed full of information and experience. Kit's mission with her content and advocacy is to bridge the gap between science and lived experience to break the stigma around mental health and she certainly does just that and more in this episode. Kit's work is smashing stigma and changing lives and we are so grateful for her voice.
This is bipolar...
My dear listeners,
As always, we talk about hard and messy mental illness topics. This episode could be activating so please take care of yourself. The episode is always here if you need to have breaks to take care of yourself.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
Meet Kit:
Kit is a mental health advocate and content creator that is diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. Her overall content focuses on her experience with her psychotic disorder, but also includes deep dives into various mental health topics on her YouTube channel. The mission of SchizoKitzo is to bridge the gap between science and lived experience to break the stigma around mental health.
You can find and connect with Kit @schizokitzo on facebook, X, instagram, youtube, TikTok and threads!
You can connect with Shaley @this.is.bipolar on IG, Threads and TikTok and this is bipolar on Youtube and Facebook.

Friday Apr 12, 2024
BIPOLAR, BIRTHDAYS & BIG FEELINGS with Shaley Hoogendoorn
Friday Apr 12, 2024
Friday Apr 12, 2024
This episode of the podcast is being released on MY BIRTHDAY!!!!
Its all about bipolar, birthdays & BIG feelings! When I asked on Instagram if anyone else gets bipolar symptoms triggered by birthdays the response was huge. I’m not alone when comes to living with symptoms and episodes brought on by this mood disorder. When I look at the comments you all left on the previous post I could see it was something that we need to talk about so I recorded a solo episode! I share stories about the good, bad and often disappointing birthdays I’ve had. I also spilled the beans about what it was like to be an extrovert, teacher and event planner that goes wild planning kids birthdays WITH HYPOMANIA. It was not always pretty behind-the-scenes.
I didn't realize how much I suffered until I really started talking about my experiences through the years. This episodes tells all of my big emotions and moods I have experienced about getting older or celebrating. The episode also covers practices that I do to that prevent or work through triggers so bipolar doesn’t take over learner ruin my day. I can celebrate that I am much better at managing my big bipolar birthday feelings and I know what I need to enjoy the day.
If you are listening and have stories or tips or practices that help you cope, I’d love to hear. DM me on @this.is.bipolar on instagram or send me an email at thisisbipolarpodcast@gmail.com. I’d love to connect.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here.It is my greatest hope that sharing journey living with bipolar disorder will comfort, educate and inspire others. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most. There is also an option on IG to become a subscriber to have access to exclusive 'going deeper' episodes of the podcast. Hope to see you there.
We are all in this together.
Love, Shaley
Shaley Hoogendoorn is a speaker, podcast host and mental illness advocate who aims to dismantle the stigma around mental health and create a safe community for those that struggle. She lives with bipolar 2 and currently hosts “This is Bipolar” vlog and podcast. Shaley is passionate about educating and empowering others about mental health disorders. She has contributed to publications for Sanctuary Ministries, Psych Central and BP Hope magazine. She hosted a series interviewing women living with mental illnesses at SheLoves Magazine in a series named "Sisters in Mental Illness." Shaley is also an elementary school teacher and an event planner. You can connect with Shaley on Instagram & TikTok @this.is.bipolar or email her at thisisbipolarpodcast@gmail.com

Friday Apr 05, 2024
Friday Apr 05, 2024
Part 1 of ‘conversations about bipolar & the workplace’ with returning favourite, rapper and content creator Brandon @therealbruss.
In this episode, mental health advocates, Shaley and Brandon talk about how living with bipolar has and continues to affect their experiences with work. They talk about their very first jobs, loss of jobs and ideas to help manage symptoms at work. Shaley and Brandon didn't realize how much they needed to be seen and heard by another person walking a similar path. They were so immersed in conversation that it is a long one so it is coming out in two parts. Shaley and Brandon hope starting this hard conversation will educate, comfort and validate others.
this is bipolar...
As always, we talk about hard and messy mental illness topics. This episode could be activating so please take care of yourself. The episode is always here if you need to have breaks to take care of yourself.
My dear listeners,
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would favourite this account & follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
Love,
Shaley
About Brandon: B. Russ (he/him/his) is a rapper and content creator with bipolar 2. Diagnosed in 2017, he’s spent the last few years using social media as a tool to normalize conversations around mental illness. Located in Atlanta, Georgia, he’s currently working on new music that will speak to his struggles with bipolar and addiction. You can connect with B. Russ @therealbruss on Instagram and TikTok.
#thisisbipolar #mentalhealth #mentalhealthpodcast #mentalillness #bipolar #bipolardisorder

Friday Apr 05, 2024
Friday Apr 05, 2024
Part 2 of ‘conversations about bipolar & the workplace’ with returning favourite, rapper and content creator Brandon @therealbruss.
In this second episode, mental health advocates, Shaley and Brandon talk about how living with bipolar has and continues to affect their experiences with work. They talk about further about there experiences managing bipolar at work. They not only share ideas to help symptoms at work, they share thoughts on how with education and understanding employers can really tap into the strengths of employers with bipolar disorder. These two advocates hope talk about the need to empower yourself and embrace your worth and identity beyond work. Shaley and Brandon didn't realize how much they needed to be seen and heard by another person walking a similar path. They were so immersed in conversation that it is a long one so go listen to part . Shaley and Brandon hope starting this hard conversation will educate, comfort and validate others.
this is bipolar...
As always, we talk about hard and messy mental illness topics. This episode could be activating so please take care of yourself. The episode is always here if you need to have breaks to take care of yourself.
My dear listeners,
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen to your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most. There is also an option on IG to become a subscriber to have access to exclusive 'going deeper' episodes of the podcast. Hope to see you there.
Love,
Shaley
About Brandon: B. Russ (he/him/his) is a rapper and content creator with bipolar 2. Diagnosed in 2017, he’s spent the last few years using social media as a tool to normalize conversations around mental illness. Located in Atlanta, Georgia, he’s currently working on new music that will speak to his struggles with bipolar and addiction. You can connect with B. Russ @therealbruss on Instagram and TikTok.
#thisisbipolar #mentalhealth #mentalhealthpodcast #mentalillness #bipolar #bipolardisorder

Tuesday Feb 27, 2024
Tuesday Feb 27, 2024
In this episode, Shaley Hoogendoorn sits down and has a in depth conversation with New York Times best-selling author and mental wellness advocate, Bassey Ikpi.
This episode shares Bassey's journey starting from her childhood in Nigeria and immigrating to the US with her family. Bassey tells of how she struggled and what her life looked like leading up to her diagnoses. The conversation covers things like how Bassey coped as a little girl by running, spinning and playing sports and how eating became a struggle. She also the full body experience of living with bipolar 2 disorder. Her descriptions of hypomania and depression in this conversation (as well as in her book) are relatable and powerful.
Shaley and Bassey talk about so much more...
- Bassey's experiences (good & bad) as mental wellness advocate online.
- Stigma and misjudgement of people struggling with mental illness in the public eye.
- Bassey's poem about bipolar disorder that she used to end her shows with. Youtube link : https://youtu.be/dGANPZr5deI
- How she uses Alexa for daily reminders but also as a tool to audibly remind her of her worth.
-Mindfulness, phone lockers, mini fridges, the STOP acronym and other strategies that help her manage the ups and downs of bipolar.
Be sure to listen to the entire conversation, this beautiful conversation ends with so many tips and tricks that help both Shaley and Bassey manage their bipolar disorder. Bassey's story is one of struggle but also one of resilience and acceptance.
This is bipolar...
Meet Bassey:
Bassey Ikpi is a versatile creative force known as a writer, author, ex-poet, performer, speaker, burpee abolitionist, and mental wellness advocate. She first made her mark on the classic 90s show BET’s Teen Summit and gained recognition as a renowned poet on HBO’s Def Poetry Jam. Her global tour with the Tony Award-winning Broadway show came to a pause with a bipolar II diagnosis, leading her to pivot towards mental wellness advocacy in her writing.
Bassey now openly shares her journey living with a chronic mental illness, inspiring others to navigate life beyond diagnosis. Her story is vividly captured in the Instant New York Times Bestselling debut book, “I’m Telling The Truth, but I’m Lying” (Harper Perennial, 2019). Despite embracing roles like an underachieving overachiever and semi-pro procrastinator, Bassey is diligently working on various creative projects, including her upcoming second book. About the book: In I’m Telling the Truth, but I’m Lying Bassey Ikpi explores her life—as a Nigerian-American immigrant, a black woman, a slam poet, a mother, a daughter, an artist—through the lens of her mental health and diagnosis of bipolar II and anxiety.
Her remarkable memoir in essays implodes our preconceptions of the mind and normalcy as Bassey bares her own truths and lies for us all to behold with radical honesty and brutal intimacy.
IG @basseyworld X: @basseyworld
To my listeners, thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would favourite this account & follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
#thisisbipolar #bipolar #bipolardisorder #mania #hypomania #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalillness #author #imtellingthetrithbutimlying #basseyikpi

Friday Feb 09, 2024
Friday Feb 09, 2024
In this episode, mental illness advocate, Shaley Hoogendoorn sits down with Niki Castle to talk about her journey with Bipolar Disorder. Not only does Niki share her story leading up to and after her bipolar diagnoses, She also speaks to her experience as a black woman, athlete, wife and parent living with a mood disorder disorder. Niki also shares all her strategies and practices that help her stay well. Niki's story is one of strength and resilience, she has turned her pain into purpose. We are so grateful for her willingness to have this conversation.
This is bipolar...
IG @this.is.bipolar
Meet Niki:
Niki Castle is a mental health coach for parents who have a child struggling with their mental health. She specializes in working with young athletes, helping them strengthen their mental mindset and face the difficulties that come with competition. Her drive to help others comes from her own struggles with mental health. An athlete in high school, Niki went on to play basketball at Washington State University. Her freshman year, she started experiencing full-fledged manic and depressive cycles and first thoughts of suicide. The transition from high school to college, along with the pressures of playing PAC 12 basketball were too much to manage.
For the next 20 years she struggled with undiagnosed bipolar disorder, attempting to take her life twice followed by two hospitalizations. In 2014, after her second suicide attempt, Niki was finally diagnosed with bipolar i disorder and was introduced to medical professionals that would make up her recovery team. Thus began her journey to becoming a mental health coach and help others with their mental health challenges.
Niki is a graduate from the Jay Shetty Certification School. She also shares her story to help combat stigma as a part of NAMI’s (National Alliance on Mental Illness) Ending the Silence program, where she presents to students, teachers, and parents throughout Los Angeles County. As a mother, it is her goal to apply her education and years of experience in the mental health community to help children and their parents equip themselves with the tools to navigate the challenges of life. You can connect with Niki @healingmindscoaching
We have an extra exclusive episode with Niki had about her work as a certified mental health coach. She supports young athletes and their parents. If you want to hear the bonus conversation please sign up to be an Instagram subscriber.
To my listeners, thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would favourite this account & follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
#thisisbipolar #bipolar #bipolardisoder #mania #hypomania #depression #anxiety #suicideprevention #suicideawarness #bipolar1 #bipolar2

Wednesday Jan 24, 2024
Episode 8 Let's Talk- tips and tricks
Wednesday Jan 24, 2024
Wednesday Jan 24, 2024
THROWBACK!!!! This episode never uploaded fully and vanished. We were able to recover it and finally put up the full episode!!! ENJOY the OG hosts and bipolar besties Shaley & Julie!!!!
LET’S TALK!! Join mental health advocates Shaley Hoogendoorn and Julie Kraft as they share how to keep important conversations going after Mental Health Awareness Days. Statistics tell us that 1 in 5 people struggle with a mental health disorder. This means someone that you know or love is suffering (often in silence) right now.
How can you support those suffering around you?
What does it look like to keep showing up when things get hard?
Shaley and Julie share tips and tools to use when engaging in heavy, awkward, or uncomfortable conversations. They tell stories about the importance of language and how we can use them to hurt or help. It is Julie and Shaley's hope that this episode encourages us all to do our part in ending the stigma around mental health and mental illness. They believe that together we can keep the conversation going.
This is bipolar...
@this_is_bipolar
#thisisbipolar #thisisbipolarpodcast

Tuesday Jan 23, 2024
Tuesday Jan 23, 2024
In this episode mental illness advocate, Shaley Hoogendoorn sits down with Joanna Imoo and Molly Novak to talk about mothering with a mood disorder.
The episode gives great insight to two different experiences as parents. Joanna is a Mom of five kids that she homeschools and Molly is a single parent that shares custody and works as an attorney. The way they both care for their children, themselves and manage their bipolar disorder is encouraging and inspiring.
Molly and Joanna talk about how they received their diagnoses and the events leading up to that time. Both believed it important to tell there children and they speak to how they did so and how heir children reacted.
Joanna and Molly candidly tell about their experiences being activated and/or triggered by parenting situations, how they handled it and what they might have done differently. They also share how their symptoms, episodes and reactions effect their roles as mothers. They broke down how this looks in both mania and depression. Both women share valuable strategies and practices that help them manage their bipolar disorder and be the best parents they can.
Shaley, Joanna and Molly hope that this episode will encourage others if they hope to have children in the future. Please know that those living with bipolar disorder know that with treatment, management and a support system you can have children and be wonderful parents.
We have an extra exclusive episode with Molly and Joanna had about the best ways family and friends can support parents living with bipolar disorder! If you want to hear the bonus conversation please sign up to be an Instagram subscriber.
This is bipolar...
IG: @this.is.bipolar
To my listeners, thank you from the bottom of my heart for being here. If this episode or podcast means something to you, I would be forever grateful if you would favourite this account & follow/subscribe the ‘this is bipolar’ podcast wherever you listen your podcasts so you stay up to date. It would also mean the world to me if you gave a 5 ⭐️ review- this helps the podcast reach those who need to hear it most.
Meet Molly:
Molly is a mom to a 7-year-old girl who she has joint custody over, making her a single mom half the time. She is a lawyer, practicing public defense. Molly can often be found snuggling her cats, practicing her dance moves, or whipping up a new meal in the kitchen. Her & her daughter love exploring new places, hiking, and doing art together.
Meet Joanna:
Joanna was born and raised in Vancouver, BC. Her parents immigrated from China in the 1950’s and were a part of the Chinese immigrant group that grew and sell local vegetables in the Lower Mainland. To this day, she still loves working in her garden and being close with the earth. She now lives with her husband, 5 kids (ages 8-16) and mini schnauzer in Surrey, BC. She spends her time homeschooling her kids, volunteering with the local homeschooling community and serving the church. When she needs to unwind, she enjoys reading, writing and long walks. In November 2022, she was diagnosed with cyclothymia.